So, love is a decent word. It carries all your pains and sorrows away. And love is patient. Love is giving. Love is forgiveness. And one day, when you find love, your dream is just become...

   Thursday, October 23, 2003  

life have been dull nowadays... study, go home, sleep. my headache isnt getting any better. it is so sickening. it doesnt seems to affect me, but when i shake off the thought of my headache, it seems to tease me by slightly grinding a bit... ouch. i wonder what is happening, well guess i will take more rest... more MRT too. haha.

studying is so boring... sometimes. staring at the stupid notes thats seems so familiar, but still have to face it and ensure that EVERYTHING goes in... yawn...

well, lucky there is still girl ard... bicker here n there a bit... sweet talk here n there a bit... spicing up my life... love ya... 60 years promise k... haha =)

luv, me

   posted by zHaN at 10/23/2003 07:23:00 am






   Wednesday, October 15, 2003  

one more month. it is just one more month. fast. yes, it is. indeed. in just one more month, i will be sitting for my A level. all the stuff i did in the past year, all the exams, all the test, all the beautiful answers are totally useless. whatever i got to prove of myself is to thrash the papers in the short 3 hours i have. many pple keep saying "so clever no need study" or such... sometimes really make me sian diao. i dont know why too. i am no AZP. i put in every bit of hard work for every bit of success. when i need to keep my work up, those devilish words "slack la..." just keep swarming to me from everywhere... even my dearest love. maybe u dont see it, but i do need motivation too. time is running out.

i dont know. maybe you are just saying it jokingly. but, i really am in no mood to joke about such stuff now. brand me crazy about this freaking A lvl... but, i want to Ace it, not Air it... maybe it is those kinda zhui3 ying4 xin1 ruan3... dont mean what ya say, but, the impact is already felt.

its time to start on my GP. i need to do work on it. hope all u guys out there gd luck n happy mugging. btw, i do respect mrs chung a lot. she is one that i saw that was able to handle anger extremely well and rationally and concentrate on work. well, i wont say i admire, for there is no use admiring pple, but i give her my utmost respect.

love, zJ

   posted by zHaN at 10/15/2003 06:36:00 am






   Saturday, October 11, 2003  

this shall be a special post. this special post dedicated to my dearest love (erm, i mean one and only love) --- lijun

time flies. time really flies. it has been a year... this year have been especially memorable for me, for i found someone i truely love. for i found someone who i can share my dearest moments with. for i found someone who can lend me a shoulder when i need one. for i found you.

i still remember the first few months when "funny" questions were asked... i was thrown into uncertainty at that time. i din know if i had made a correct choice, or i was just being swayed by puppy love again. however, the latter seems to be proven wrong. i feel that i had made a right choice.

there are many intimate moments between us. i love the moments when u were in my arms, watching the common, clinche, yet so seemingly beautiful sunset at pandan reservior. everytime we went there, there seems to be a different experience. those are moments that i will hold on forever, they are etched in my brain. these moments will be with me forever, never to fade into memories...

i also remember that time at west coast park, i promised u that i will give you eighteen bottles of bubbles blowing stuff. i have yet to fulfill that promise, and i will try my best to complete that uphill task =)

i just opened my drawer. it is fully packed. i put all the things that you gave me into it. i put all my precious moments and "records" of precious moments into it. it is very very full. BUT, it is not saturdated yet, and it will not reach saturation any soon. remember the unconincidental conincidence? 12062003, 12102062? both adds up to number 14. fate? perhaps. and also, we gave our word that we will last till AT LEAST 12102062. i believe we will... hugz...

well, life is never a bed of roses. so is love. among the lovely flowers, there are thorns. i have to admit that there are indeed many differences among us. however, we gave in to each other and that took us so far. well, if we managed to do that in the past year, why not in the next 59 years and more? i believe that we can brave more storms together.

what i wanna say is sometimes unexpressable... just feel the big green heart for more of my feelings. i just hope that this bedtime story for you will be a nice mark for our first year. i love you dear...

luv, zHaN

   posted by zHaN at 10/11/2003 07:36:00 am